Friday, April 13, 2012

Pendemonium (Quotes)

The next morning I wrap my toes in cloth, stuff my feet into my shoes, and run again.  If you can...just a little bit farther...just a little bit'll see, you'll see, you'll see.  Alex is alive. 
I'm not crazy.  I know he isn't, not really.  As soon as my runs are done and I'm hobbling back to the church basement, it hits me like a wall: the stupidity of it all, the pointlessness.  Alex is gone, and no amount of running or pushing or bleeding with bring him back.
I know it.  But here's the thing:  When I'm running, there's always this split second when the pain is ripping through me and I can hardly breathe and all I see is color and blur - and in that split second, right as the pain crests, and becomes too much, and there's a whiteness going through me, I see something to my left, a flicker of color (auburn hair, burning, a crown of leaves) - and I know then, too, that if I only turn my head he'll be there, laughing, watching me, holding out his arms.
I don't ever turn my head to look, of course.  But one day I will.  One day I will, and he'll be back, and everything will be okay.
And until then:  I run. 
- Then, Page 75



I'm still getting over this one.  SO.  PAINFUL.

Review on Monday.


  1. I actually liked this one and am looking forward to see what happens in the final book (heartbreaking though it is). There were quite a few people that thought it was disappointing after the first book, but I thought it made a lot of sense. I hope you're enjoying reading it, even though it is bittersweet.

  2. This is one of my favorite books ever.  It was so good!  I don't like it AS MUCH as Delirium but I still lovelovelove it!!  And you're right, it is VERY bittersweet!  I cried quite a few times throughout...  It's beautiful!
    Thanks for the comment!

  3.  Oh my goodness... If you heard a crack in that silence, that was my heart. This book was so incredibly heartbreaking! I finished this one last month and I still don't know how to rate ir OR write a review for it, so I've kept it as a four on Goodreads even though it probably deserves much more. x)

    I'm both glad and sad that you felt the same way, Sierra! There were just certain scenes in the book -- like this one! -- where I wanted to crawl in a hole and cry for Lena, particularly any scene that mentioned Alex! It was just so sad!

    Thanks so much for sharing this, Sierra! <3 Didn't that ending just kill you?? I think I'm going to have to beg LO to write a little faster so Requiem can be on our shelves next month haha! ;)

  4. YES, I HEARD THE CRACK!!   My heart was breaking along with yours.  I can't wait to read your review when you finally manage to put words onto paper...cuz, I understand.  It's ridiculously hard to write something know?
    Yes, any scene with Alex, had me gasping for breath and so sad and depressed and GAH!!! I just can't handle it anymore!!!

    And guess what?  Apparently, she's DONE with Requiem!!  It's the publishers who are being stingy and TORTURING US!!!  IT'S NOT OKAY WITH ME!!!
    And yes, the ending KILLED ME.  I'm sorry about all the caps, but that's just how I feel. I can't hold it back. hahaha ;)